[Live Laugh Love]

The feeling of being stressed out



makes me want to rage, run, and shout.



Screaming "Why can't I manage all this stress?" and



"Why did I let myself get so low to have my life be such a



God Damn Mess?"



All I want is to be able to keep in the present, stop



dwelling on the past, so that the cloud can be lifted



and I can see the road to find a changed me



And hope God will show me signs to find my true Destiny.



But right now all I keep asking God is to let me be



To please stop giving me all the these tests



Because it is just making me feel run down and depressed



I hate feeling so anxious, irritable, and overwhelmed



When I am feeling like this my mind feels like it is



in another realm.



But as I have been told God is only here to give you what



you "need" not necessarily what you "want"



Though it feels like these tradgedy's, road blocks, and



tests are making the stress build a fight in my head



Where it's like these demons are there to scare me and taunt



Taunt me to make me afraid of what lies next



And to keep me in my head where the crazy thoughts run



To keep making me think of the Pain I went through



in the past that I regret but will never forget



Today I am truly trying to change my character defects



Keep in the day, stay clean, and learn coping skills



So that I can manage my life and have a strong will



And I can live my life with the desire to survive



So that I can finally have the compelling feeling



of being alive.

A Poem written by Elizabeth Mooney