It's been a bit over a month since I finally figured out that my depression had got out of control.Somehow it seems like longer than that.Maybe because it's been kind of a hard road.
It feels like my thinking had become all snarled and knotted,and trying to sort it out is not an easy task.Sure,adjusting my medication has helped a lot.I was over stressed and under treated for a long time.But that's only part of the problem.I still have to face myself,and look at my part in all of it.
I had to see where I had allowed fear to come between me and the rest of the world.And where I had been too dependant on others for a sense of well being.I had to look at my emotional roadblocks.I have been doing a lot to restore myself.
I am facing my fears.I am talking about it.And I am taking karate with my son.It's a good time for both of us.The classes encourage me to get out of myself and to be open to letting people close to me on a physical level in a safe and healthy environment.
I am paying close attention to nutrition as well.There are foods that help provide what my system needs to be strong and well balanced.I am making sure that I get what I need to be well.
I am also getting closer to God.I asked to be released.I told Him it's hard to let go of the old thinking and the old behavior,but that I am willing to let Him take it for me.It's given me peace.
I feel 100% better in so many ways.My thoughts are finally untangled
Thanks for listening,
phoenix