(((Sammybear)))
Welcome to SR!
I'm glad to hear that you've made an appointment with a therapist. It very well could be post partum depression you are dealing with, or you may need to tweek your meds for your bipolar condition. But, certainly, the vast hormonal changes that occure after giving birth can wreak havoc on anyone! I went through a bit of post partum depression myself, so, I can relate.
Don't loose hope. But, do try to do good things for yourself now, as difficult as it is. It's important to take care of yourself physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually when we are feeling this way. Yes, I know it's hard; almost impossible. But, try, each day, to do at least one thing for yourself in these areas....or even one if that's all you can manage to start with. It's progress, not perfection, right?
My thoughts and prayers are with you now as you go through this difficult time. And G*D's blessings on the new baby in your life. What a joy! All the promise of the world is contained within the little one.
Shalom!