[miss communicat]

I've been ruminating over this piece of writing for 2 days. So much of it is very heartfelt and truthful for me, one of those parts being:

"Some get part way in and become afraid
Lest God and the zeal of His house devour them;
For God is so very great and asks of all of us,
And these people feel a cosmic claustrophobia,
And want to get out. "Let me out!" "

For over 9 years I stayed away from AA because it felt to me to be a devouring Christian House of God, and I am not an avowed Christian. I love the love in Christianity, but I am on a different path to God and Truth besides the Christian path.

Today, I am so very grateful for those in AA who stand by the door, reaching their hands out to others', mine included, helping us reach the latch to our own door to our own God.

I am no longer one of the frightened:

"And the people way inside only terrify them more.
Somebody must be watching for the frightened.."

What wisdom is in these words:

"The people too far in do not see how near these are
To leaving-"

yet, also in these, which appear to contradict:


"Go in, great saints, go all the way in-
Go way down into the cavernous cellars,
And way up into the spacious attics-
It is a vast roomy house, this house that God is.
Go into the deepest of hidden casements,
....
Some must inhabit those inner rooms,
And know the depths and heights of God...."

all in all, I get a message that we are all exactly where we are meant to be as long as we are in service to God.