I join you with the "sigh... he still doesnt get it." You aren't a bad mother at all for saying maybe jail will bring him some insight. You are a mother who loves her son and whose life has been so torn apart by addiction, that you will wish for anything (even him going to jail) if it meant he would finally "get it." I am so sorry your Christmas will be tainted and I understand. WHen I hear my brother say certain things I breathe the same long sigh and wonder when he'll truley "get it." My pray is that YOU can enjoy the other people in your life this Christmas who do get it...... Take care of yourself...