| My Real Purpose
During this step, I am trying to put my life back together, but that isn't the true purpose or spirit of the step, my real purpose is to be of maximum service to God and the people about me.
Step 9 for me backs up my decision that God is everything. If I am blocked from you because of guilt, shame, regret, etc. I am blocked from the sunlight of the spirit. Cleaning away the wreckage of the past opened this channel. It wasn't about me, it was about the many people who needed a chance to heal and say whatever it was they needed to say, it was an opportunity for me to practice shutting up and listening (a skill I truly lacked). It was also an opportunity for me to set aside what I thought I knew about harms caused to others, what the ammend experience should look like, what the other person should say...It confirmed that trusting and relying on infinite God, rather than my finite self was absolutely the easier softer way.
The freedom this step has brought into my life is a gift. It is no wonder the promises we hear at many meetings are found in this part of the process.
They will always materialize if we work for them.
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