| Today's Step
Day 1 Quote: Addictive History
"If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything."
When we were very little, we dreamed about what we wanted to be when we grew up. We did this in part because adults used to ask us all the time, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" We also did it because it is normal for little children to fantasize an ideal existence for themselves.
As we grew older, our dreams began to fade under the influence of the giants in our life who dictated the path we were to follo. Some of us were traumatized by being told we'd never amount to anything. Others were ordered to live up to our potential (whatever that was supposed to be). Still others of us were expected to follow in our parent's footsteps.
Some of these expectations didn't become harmful until they started clashing with our own personal yearnings and ambitions. While many of us followed those parental dictaes with good results, others of us assumed---but hated---the roles assigned to us. Playing those roles created negative thinking, negative attitudes and behavior. It's exactly these characteristics that we need to examine now to come to a clearer understanding of our addictive history. An addict with no sense of addictive history can never admit to anyone the exact nature of his wrongs.
Today's Step: I share my addictive history fearlessly.
| Step by Step. Muriel Zink
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NOTE: All BB quotes are from the 1st Edition of the Big Book
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