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GG66
Powerful post. Here is a gentle hug to you for your pain and for your journey in recovery.
I love "I have the best of him IN HER".
I hope you will someday not look back at your decisions at that time with any sense of regret. You did what you did at the time you did it because it just was. You did what you thought was best at that time.
It seems so very long ago when I was married to my A son's father. I didn't realize that he was addicted (perhaps I should have but I didn't). While I was in the final stages of the very long and difficult birth of my son, my ex said "This is sooooooo boring." I thought "the birth of your child is boring?" wow.
Our marriage only lasted a year and a half into my son's life before I realized that I could not continue to be a mother to my husband AND to my young son. I knew that life without my husband would be better than our life with him.
I don't regret that year and a half that I stayed with him after our son was born. It was what I needed to do to be sure that I was making the right decision.
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