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Day 1

Came to believe

"The only thing that changed was my mind." Laurie Nedvin

Some folks have commented that in order to work Step Two, they found it necessary to break down the first three words:
Came....
Came to....
Came to believe.....

Translated, this means that, first, it was necessary to show up for action. Secondly, we needed to be open-minded. And finally, we had to place our trust in a power outside ourselves.

Now, in Step Three, we are asked to turn our will and our lives over to a power we totally fear, or with whom we're totally unfamiliar. A leap into this kind of blind faith can seem as terrifying as being told that someone has booked passage for us on a spaceship to the moon.

Even though we recognize we need all the help we can get, the thought of releasing our self-will, despite every indication that it is partly responsible for our current dilemma, is almost too much to comtemplate.

We want to declare that, armed with this new resolve, we can now pull ourselves together and get on the right track. But because we are fearful and skeptical of letting go---because we have not yet learned to trust---we tend to regret and reject this step, falling into the mode of "contempt prior to investigation."

Today's step: Each day I experience a growing faith in my Higher Power.

Step By Step, meditations for living the twelve steps. By Muriel Zink