it seems my orginal post was lost in the crash
along with many others. Sooo...
I went to several Step Study Workshops
Attended weekly Step meetings
Got a bunch of forms from various places
And still I fiddled around ...started and stopped.
It was darn hard to look at myself.
Finally...I sat down with my Big Book...Prayed
and let it flow. 4 hours later
I called L. and we made a date
to do my 5th the nest morning.
I was almost 3 years sober!!
Whew!
Thanks for letting me share