[Hooner]

Thank you Dr. Snow for your insight. It relieves me to know I'm not the only one with this "theory." Drinking is making my life miserable and it's so difficult to quit without going into a major mood swing. I know alot of this is normal for alcoholics - but I think I to have bipolar tendencies and definately anxiety.

I'll go a week without talking to my husband and then act as though everything is normal. He looks at me like I'm crazy - I get hurt because of his actions and so the cycle goes.

This month, even though I've cried alot, I am recognizing the patterns and not blaming myself like I use to. When I blame myself then it just sends me into a tail spin of suicide or cutting.

I do my best to just say, "I'm not well today and am getting help." These are all things I'm going to tell the Dr. For now, I'm planning on leaving the drinking out but maybe when I get there it will be a different vibe. I'm making notes of things I want to tell her.

Thanks again for the feedback!:atv