I wish you only the best, Jenna.
And I pray that you will continue to come and share your ESH with us. You've made a big differnce here for all of us, by sharing so openly, breaking down the barriers and the stigmas associated with mental illness and now, with ECT. You are a breath of fresh air. I am greatful for your presence here.
As I said on the other thread, Jenna, you need to feel your anger. Experience your loss. Grieve.
And then, get past it.
As we all must.
Accept what has happened, because, that is what has happened. We cannot change it.
But, go through the process of experiencing that anger and grief first.
It's normal; it's ok; and if you want, we'll be there for you as you go through it.
I won't be frightened away by your anger, Jenna... I'll be here for you, as you have been here for me.
I hope you reconsider...
Shalom, my friend...Shalom!