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It looks like i will probably be receiving my first ever ECT treatment Friday and i will be gone for a while. For those who don't know what that is...ECT is electro-convulsive therapy.

The ECT docs office called me today to tell me this (even tho i haven't yet met with them for an official evaluation). They were requesting info from my referring psychiatrist (who i basically had to beg to refer me b/c he thinks ECT is "only done on old people").

The ECT office said they will work tomorrow to get me a bed inpatient and from there i can have all the necessary physical testing done that is needed to clear me for the 6 weeks of treatments, which will be 3 times per week. Oddly enough, i'm more worried about going under anesthesia than the actual shock treatments.

But, i am very excited for what this can mean for me since ECT is 90 percent successful in treating severe depression, but am nervous b/c it's all new and i will be in a total fog for at least 6 weeks.

i will most likely be inpatient the entire time....or else will be having to be taken care of by my mother so i doubt i'll get back here much if any.

Didn't want u guys to worry about my sudden absence since i've been so bad off lately. But i don't know that i'll choose to come back here much anyway after loosing sooooo much of my journal writings in this last system crash.

Dr. Snow...if you still have that link to that surgeon who has undergone ECT will you repost it for Liveweyerd and others pleeeezzze?

Live, Teach, Doll, Cinder, Katie, Bozo, Hippy, Peda, Snow, Hooner, Wolfe (forgive me if i've forgotten any names as my memory is bad right now)...thank you all soooooo much for all the support you've each given me even through your own difficult times. i wish you each the very best and i will try to check in at least once after all my ECT treatments and all the fog clears.

hugs,
jenna