[Jomey]

Hey BH- I am looking at your post and thinking about what has led you not to believe in God and what has led you to not be a "people person". Your post reads like you don't want to believe and you don't want to like people...that's ok, IF (big if) you can also recover. But if you have these issues, and you find you can't recover with them in place, then you have to change, no matter how hard it is. I am not able to give you any magic words of wisdom, but I can just tell you that I have changed immensely in the short time I have been sober...sometimes willingly, sometimes grudgingly, but changed I have. And I am sober and better for it.

Wish there was more to say, but it's mainly your call. We're here for you -J