I am just sitting here realizing again that yes I ALWAYS have a choice in how I feel. This eludes me most of the time. I get so stck in the moment I feel I will surely crack up or go insane. So I am making lists and plans and goals today. One is writing down my positive qualities, another is writing a list of everything I need to talk to a doctor about. I am crazy scared of doctors right now, but am willing to take small steps towards really taking care of myself. I can't sit in my own crap any longer! So I thought I'd share some of the good things I am DOING...and will post updates on my goals to remind myself I AM making progress and I WILL be okay..no matter what. I let the situation with my mom and this house closing get me to beat up..I beat myself up that is...I don't want my mind to be a prison..I want to LIVE before I die ya know? I know you guys understand and it is just amazing that I feel comfortable sharing with you all. I had shut down interacting with people for a couple of years. Just too damn tired and scared to deal with anything. But I want to live life on life's terms. It's too crazy trying to rearrange everything t my wishes and desires. Thanks for listening....hope you all are doing alright today.
((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))
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Many Hugs and Hope too,
Tammie
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~
"Things do not change, WE change."
~Henry David Thoreau~
