I am truelly sorry for your loss. I know we have all done things we can never change. I agree with Best. Also maybe in the future after you get some healing. Maybe this is something that you can use to help others going through the same thing. Or to help others to not make the same mistake. One of the wonderful things about God is that he can turn things around and use them for good. He says "For I know the plans I have for you, plans for good and not evil." He will forgive anything. You have to learn to forgive yourself and maybe in the future you can help others with your story. Keep posting if you need to. You might try the womans forum if you haven't already. But remember you are truelly and deeply loved.
