[Hooner]

Hi Shutter,

You sound like me checking e-mails when I'm on a nervous streak or avoiding something (like writing a paper). It's like a gambler waiting for that one that big hit, the one e-mail. I've found I have to close my e-mail and do something else (I have to be on the computer writing) or if I can walk away and watch a tv show or a movie.

I follow your journal but may have missed it - did you ever have a substance abuse problem? My demon is alcohol. Anxiety, racing thoughts, without it nightmares - I've detoxed a bunch of times and am doing much better now.

Anyhow, you are very focused on guys right now for some reason -- I don't know why -- step away an I bet you the rain will fall -- what's that song..."It's raining men, halelujah, it's raining men!"

It goes with the saying, "A pot of water watched never boils."

Kudos to you from Florida!