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Hooner · 11-18-2007, 08:02 PM

Suicide Doll,

I am not sure what to write but feel the urge to respond. I have been suicidal and know what the feeling is like, however, I am so happy to be alive now. One year ago I planned my date, Nov. 14, 2006 - that would be it. I am happy to say it never took and when that date recently passed I thought of everything I would have missed had I taken my life that day 300+ days ago. It wasn't worth it!
I have alot more living to do! And, so do you.

Look at all of your strong qualities. You are obviously smart, responsible, caring and I'm sure there are many more. Teenage years are difficult for everyone. Kids are cruel. As for your dad - I know it hurts but he has to own it. His actions have nothing to do with you or who you are.

As for the court and lease - it sounds as though there is alot of drama in your life with the recent heroin use and the friends you have chosen in the past. It is great that you have been able to remain clean by yourself (another strength) however, you seem very responsible -- so I'm sure you will figure out a responsible solution.

As for county help -- I've been there and they're all slackers -- at least what I've seen. It's not worth it or maybe I'm just too smart for my own good. I end up telling them what to do in a session. I oftentimes think I have BPD but I also drink -- when I'm able to stay sober -- life goes alot smoother. And just taking moments out for myself to drink some hot tea and read a short passage make a world of difference.

Hang in there -- you're only 20! Your life is just beginning and you've already been through so much. I'm rooting for you here in FL.

11-18-2007, 08:02 PM	#5 (permalink)
Hooner Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Sunny Florida Posts: 73	Suicide Doll, I am not sure what to write but feel the urge to respond. I have been suicidal and know what the feeling is like, however, I am so happy to be alive now. One year ago I planned my date, Nov. 14, 2006 - that would be it. I am happy to say it never took and when that date recently passed I thought of everything I would have missed had I taken my life that day 300+ days ago. It wasn't worth it! I have alot more living to do! And, so do you. Look at all of your strong qualities. You are obviously smart, responsible, caring and I'm sure there are many more. Teenage years are difficult for everyone. Kids are cruel. As for your dad - I know it hurts but he has to own it. His actions have nothing to do with you or who you are. As for the court and lease - it sounds as though there is alot of drama in your life with the recent heroin use and the friends you have chosen in the past. It is great that you have been able to remain clean by yourself (another strength) however, you seem very responsible -- so I'm sure you will figure out a responsible solution. As for county help -- I've been there and they're all slackers -- at least what I've seen. It's not worth it or maybe I'm just too smart for my own good. I end up telling them what to do in a session. I oftentimes think I have BPD but I also drink -- when I'm able to stay sober -- life goes alot smoother. And just taking moments out for myself to drink some hot tea and read a short passage make a world of difference. Hang in there -- you're only 20! Your life is just beginning and you've already been through so much. I'm rooting for you here in FL. __________________ "We may not be able to carpet the world, but we can put on slippers."