| If only help cost less
I have done research on BPD. I have wondered if maybe I do have it. The problem is help costs. People suggest support groups and free counseling but that can only do so much. And so far it hasn't helped at all.
I promised my family I'd never hurt myself again. The hardest part of doing that was knowing I wasn't sure. I think about it all the time.
Medicine and counseling don't stop the pain though. They don't take away the fact that I strive for a buck to live. That my dad doesn't care about my health, or my existence.
I am currently being threatened to be taken to court because I owe someone $180. I signed a lease with three people and regret it. I am so depressed and I just want to go home, but theres seven months left on my lease, and home isn't much of a home for me.
I'm tired, and I'm tired of being tired. For once I just want someone to take care of me.
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