| yeah thats exactly how i felt. i would have like 50 dollars in the machine and I know I should cash out but i would keep thinking it should hit anytime and i would always say 'ok, ill let it get down to 40....then 30....'. it was definitely hard to walk away so yeah I realized i should probably never gamble either. i think we just have addictive personalities and take whatever we do to extremes.
i also need to find something to do. it is boring without all the vices we had for all these years! ive been on some job interviews and am just waiting to hear. sometimes i feel like moving to another country and starting over fresh....wishful thinking i guess!!! |