Ruth,
I noticed what you said to Amy about if he loved you he wouldn't have done it. Sweetie, I felt the EXACT same way!! Thing is that's NOT true. I'm sure he does love you, just as my addict loves me, but REMEMBER the coke has a hold on him and it's strong. It has NOTHING to do with their love for US or our kids. The voices that come with addiction just seem stronger when they want to use, than our voices are. They DO love us though. Be strong!! You're in my prayers
Love & Hugs!!
JEN