[hippyhippy]

thank you for your replies. I am so sorry you are feeling bad too live. I admire your courage for staying in the hospital though.
Bee, I will take your advice on board when I can think about food. At the moment any food makes me feel ill. I can eat but hubby has to prepare it. We don't really eat a lot of processed foods anyway.

I have managed weekend but I still feel like hell. Worse today than yesterday. It is like the words of that song, Robbie Williams I think, "I don't wanna die, but I aint keen on living either"
I am in such a bleak place just now. I have shrink coming out to visit me in an hours time and I just don't know what to say to her for the best.
Am I still thinking about harming myself? Well yes, all the time, but I am not doing anything about it.
Am I taking the meds? Yes, but they terrify me and I may not much longer.
Do I feel safe? Well....no...but I don't want to be in hospital either. But I dont want to be here where I feel so bad either..
I am in such a no win situation.
Hippy