[kelsh]

What you are describing right now is how I felt when I had Clinical Depression and was very ill. I had quit drinking as well as getting help for my depression but they had to wait about six months to see if my depression was releated to my alcoholism or if I truly had depression. They couldn't take my word for ....that I had been diagnosed with depression when I was a teen.

Hopefully you will be able to find out something tomorrow. Your friend must be trying very hard to help you but it sounds like you aren't able to do any of your normal activities as such right now. I was at a standstill. I was going to work and to AA Meetings but I was dying inside. I had no motivation, couldn't concentrate, couldn't eat, couldn't sleep...was existing in a fog. Felt like a puppet on a string with each family member or friend pulling my strings. :puppet

My heart breaks for you. Please Please tell the "shrink" how awful you are feeling & how close you are to seeking something to relieve your pain inside of you. When I was at this point I was hospitalized for suicidal ideation which is thinking of suicide and a plan to carry it out. :praying

I will be waiting for another post from you and you just hang in there...hang on with all your strength until tomorrow. :comfort

kelsh