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I have actually called and talked to a person in NA..and they are going to pick me up tonight at about 7pm I think..I call the guy back at 5pm...I am actually doing something instead of promising myself and others and letting myself down..I have done it...I became so depressed and crazy last night i was afraid I would jump in front of a moving vehicle..Oh no!! I will not surrender to this disease..It can kick my a**...It can't stop me from taking another path in life...I choose..It loses!!! period, end of discussion..
Also, my mother moved out today...my kidsa re happier and I feel relieved yet guilty too. You guys know that messed up family dynamics stuff..anyways..I am taking charge now...thanks for always encouraging me no matter how many times I fall.