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Well I fell of my horse so to speak last night. I had a real bad day. My wife called me from the Minneapolis airport. She had been out of town and that is why she wasn't answering her phone. We get to fly for free because she is an airline employee. I would imagine she went to California to see her ex-husband. I couldn't deal with my emotions so I used. I think I need more tools to deal with life right now. I can't keep diving into a bottle of shiraz everytime I get overwhelmed. I guess I'll move on and reset my sobriety date. Try again.
My dog is my only company right now. She is a real sweetheart. When I get upset she puts her head on my lap as if to say it's ok. I gave her a bath in my drunken state last night and let her sleep on the bed with me for the first time. I'm certainly not going to make a habit of that, she lays in the dirt and occasionly rolls in dead animal carcuses she finds in the woods.
I'm looking forward to getting back to school next semester. My wife asked me to take this semester off to finish my remodeling and construction projects. I miss the interaction with people. It's a great place to make new friends. All my old friends live in bars and drink a lot. I lost touch with them when I got married and I don't think I should contact them. They probably don't want me around anyways because I get so drunk they end up having to take care of me. I really have a problem with alcohol.