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First off, great job on staying sober.... No, you are not a crazy alcoholic. I think just the opposite I think u are strong person in recovery. I know that when I was 1st given diagnosis of manic depression I was in denial. I did not fill the script I even trough it out, well next time I had an episode I could no longer keep my head in the sand. I would suggest u see a Dr. and let them know your symptoms. I feel 85-95% better, yes I still have bad days but compared to how I use to be a major improvement. The things that u said #1-5 were the exact things I said to my Dr. and he said that has nothing to do with it, your body isn't making enough serotonin. I would suggest u get to the doctor. Know u are not alone in this battle.