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I have researched Alcoholism as soon as I was old enough to know what it was. Deep down I know it's not my fault but that guilt is always there.
I called the police in her city/state once already but the hospital let her go not thinking she was a danger to herself. They wanted to admit her into an inpatient treatment hospital...but you know how HMO's are. She says she is still trying to get approval to go in. She won't go to AA or anything like that because she is a "professional" and only icky people go there. *deep sigh*
Tonight she did say if she did drink herself to death..it would be no big deal because she has nothing to live for.
Needless to say it made me angry. I always thought I was important enough to live for...or hell even her 3 grandkids. Sort of puts it into perspective for me....
Oh well...not much I can do except watch and wait, come what may. Guess it's a small blessing I moved so far away.
I know my posts make me sounds cold and cynical but it's just my anger..I am really a nice person and I have never had any enemies...LOL
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