Thank you, Stone.
2-3 bottles of wine a night is a lot of just sitting and drinking and making the time pass...I think I did it mostly because of boredome, anxiety and then out of habit. It's hard to think about coming home and just being and accepting it for what it is. It's a nice thought though to let go and do that. It all started when I moved from another state by myself....stressful job, knew nobody, etc....
So I really have no choice now but to take this seriously...I have a fatty liver and I absolutely cannot handle the hangovers anyore. How I've done it and kept at the top of my game for 5 years is beyond me...I really dislike it and I get no satisfaction from drinking the wine - I have to force myself sometimes. I would rather be spending time with my dogs, reading, learning, exercising and doing things that feed my soul. If I think about every night that I've passed out and the hangovers everday...gosh it is just awful. I feel like I've robbed myself of 5 years. What do you do with that? I guess you just live in the moment and accept it for what it is and don't lose anymore time...
Anyway...so day 5
fishy