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Lilya,
I am formilur with AA as my brother used to attend AA meetings and he was also in 3 different treatment centers so I know about Alanon. I have thought about going to a meeting but the thought just scares me to tears. I don't know why but I have a real anxiety over meeting new ppl and new situations.
I am just so down. I can't even concentrate. I can't over come the feeling that I am now a stray that got thrown away because I am to much trouble. I have lots of animals (2 dogs, 5 cats, 2 birds and a bunny) that I took in and adopted because their owners didn't want them any more cause they were to much trouble and thats how I feel. I feel left on the roadside. I guess thats why I turned back to my ex because he was like..ohhhh its ok..I'll take you. But thats just leading backwards. I really feel like I am slipping downhill rather than going up. I know it would be best to just cut off contact with him but I feel so alone. Like...well its not what is good for me at all but at least he wants me.
Oh well, just having a bad afternoon I guess.
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