[nandm]

I am glad you are here. Realizing there are alternatives to a life of drinking is a start on a solution to a drinking problem.

I can relate to feeling invisible. I felt that way on many levels. The majority of my life I felt like I was alone in a crowd. It is not a good feeling to be in a room full of people and still be lonely. Not know what to say, be too afraid to speak, afraid I might say the wrong thing and look stupid, etc....

Another way I felt invisible was the fact that I had become such a good actor. I had put on a front for the world to see for so long that I knew no one had any idea who I really was. I hated that feeling but did not know how to change it.

I am fortunate that I have found a solution for my feelings of invisibility. I no longer feel alone in a crowd, I am not worried about saying the wrong thing, I feel comfortable walking up to someone and starting a conversation. I am no longer the actor. Who I am on the inside better matches who I am on the outside. It feels so much better.

For me it took stopping drinking. The way I did that was through A.A. which also helped me find me again. It taught me more than just how to put a cork in the jug. I now have a life that is not full of loneliness. I am very grateful for my life today.

Keep posting. We are glad you are here.