| Admitting I was wrong
Hello family,
I have something to share. In a fit of anger and frustration I started a thread under Secular Connections last Spring denouncing AA as a whole and expelling how displeased I was with it. I honestly felt at the time that I would be able to fix myself. I was wrong. In August I relapsed and lost everything. My Job. My Fiancee. My money. My self respect. I was the closest to suicide I have ever been, and that is a scary thing indeed. At the last AA meeting I attended in Spring, I was told that I would lose everything if I didn't work the program. I laughed it off. Who are these people to tell me they are the way the truth and the life. Now I shake my head in disbelief. So I am writing this for anyone and I mean ANYONE who might be doubting the program or their place in it right now. PLEASE PLEASE do not make the mistake I did. I would give ANYTHING to take back what I have done. I am in constant agony. I have 68 days and a sponsor now and all I've got now is the rest of my life to stay sober one day at a time.
:sorry
chris
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