[happyagain]

hi there everyone, sorry that i haven't posted sooner but i have been super busy with work and school and the kids and my dad. some days i don't know if i am coming, going, or already been there!!! lol!!! but anyway......my life has taken an unexpected turn here lately.....my ex-fiance and i are back in contact with each other. we haven't been in touch with each other for about 16 years but we are e-mailing and calling each other now. the only catch is is that he is married--unhappily but married. i feel guilty sometimes but by the same token his kids are practically grown up, the youngest is a senior in high school and he does want a divorce and i had nothing to do with that decision. he made that choice BEFORE he asked his mom for my phone number and e-mail address. we met when he had been legally seperated from his wife for 2 years but she wouldn't give him a divorce without costing him his oldest child. it is a long and complicated story.....so instead on risking him loosing his son all those years ago i left him. he stayed married so that he could raise his kids and now is ready to cut the ties between him and his wife. he told me that i am the love of his life and he wants me. and i will be honest it feels really damned good to hear a man say that to me, god knows that neither of my ex-husbands never said anything like that to me. and i do want him back. i have always loved him and missed him and regretted walking away from him. but i still feel like i am being selfish for wanting him. and i am concerned about how his kids will handle a divorce although they are 17, 19, and 21 years old. i don't know, maybe it is just me and my hangups about not thinking that i deserve anything good in any way shape or form.