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Fernando · 10-19-2007, 03:48 PM

Hi there Pam. My name is Fernando and I'm a recovering cocaine addict and also Bipolar. I smoked crack throughout the 90's and nowadays when I relapse I buy a twenty of powder and that is my limit. I know it's still wrong and that the fact it's powder doesn't make it any better but that's just my current situation.

I had a brother four years younger than I who was killed in an automobile accident after binging on crack for 3 days so I will NEVER use it again. I know that.

You have got to ask God for strength from above and let your son choose his own path. When it comes down to coke and hero people who try to help you just end up enabling you to do it more frequently.

I know it's difficult and that you are suffering but my advise to you from this side of the fence (a recovering user) is to let go completely. Don't give him even a glass of water if you see that he needs it because he will just end up using you and destroying you.

My rock bottom was seeing my brother's brains splattered all over the street. My mother still has difficulty with letting go even now that I don't use and this is a cause for resentment from me... that she actually facilitated my addiction for almost five years.

Let go. Let God.

10-19-2007, 03:48 PM	#4 (permalink)
Fernando Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Miami, FL Posts: 10	When to let go: Hi there Pam. My name is Fernando and I'm a recovering cocaine addict and also Bipolar. I smoked crack throughout the 90's and nowadays when I relapse I buy a twenty of powder and that is my limit. I know it's still wrong and that the fact it's powder doesn't make it any better but that's just my current situation. I had a brother four years younger than I who was killed in an automobile accident after binging on crack for 3 days so I will NEVER use it again. I know that. You have got to ask God for strength from above and let your son choose his own path. When it comes down to coke and hero people who try to help you just end up enabling you to do it more frequently. I know it's difficult and that you are suffering but my advise to you from this side of the fence (a recovering user) is to let go completely. Don't give him even a glass of water if you see that he needs it because he will just end up using you and destroying you. My rock bottom was seeing my brother's brains splattered all over the street. My mother still has difficulty with letting go even now that I don't use and this is a cause for resentment from me... that she actually facilitated my addiction for almost five years. Let go. Let God.