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nohiogal · 11-04-2003, 01:54 PM

Lilya..Thanks for replying. Just having a really down day today. I have felt depressed at times but it seems much worse this time. I am only 34 and I feel like such a loser. I have been divorced twice (left both due to "their" drinking) and again just ended a 1 1/2 year long distance relationship. He left cause of my drinking. I never drank around him, I really never felt the urge when we were together, but we only saw each other every couple months.

I have gone out on a couple dates with my 2nd ex-husband (well not quite dates, more meeting at a bar) and I feel myself sliding backwards. I really have made progress on my attempt to stop drinking, I drink WAY less then I used to and not as often. I know I have a long way to go yet but I am trying.

But now this depression has come over me and if I am not sleeping or crying, then I am drinking. At this point I have no friends only my kids, my mom and my ex to even talk to. My kids are old enough (13 and 15) to know I have a problem but they are also at the age of building their own life with friends. My mother is always there and is my rock most of the time, but she has medical problems and if she worries about me that aggrivates them. And of course my ex who says.....awwww relax there is nothing wrong with you and hands me a drink.

I feel very isolated and alone. Sorry this post is so lengthy, just getting it all out.

Thanks for listening.

11-04-2003, 01:54 PM	#3 (permalink)
nohiogal Paused Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 35	Lilya..Thanks for replying. Just having a really down day today. I have felt depressed at times but it seems much worse this time. I am only 34 and I feel like such a loser. I have been divorced twice (left both due to "their" drinking) and again just ended a 1 1/2 year long distance relationship. He left cause of my drinking. I never drank around him, I really never felt the urge when we were together, but we only saw each other every couple months. I have gone out on a couple dates with my 2nd ex-husband (well not quite dates, more meeting at a bar) and I feel myself sliding backwards. I really have made progress on my attempt to stop drinking, I drink WAY less then I used to and not as often. I know I have a long way to go yet but I am trying. But now this depression has come over me and if I am not sleeping or crying, then I am drinking. At this point I have no friends only my kids, my mom and my ex to even talk to. My kids are old enough (13 and 15) to know I have a problem but they are also at the age of building their own life with friends. My mother is always there and is my rock most of the time, but she has medical problems and if she worries about me that aggrivates them. And of course my ex who says.....awwww relax there is nothing wrong with you and hands me a drink. I feel very isolated and alone. Sorry this post is so lengthy, just getting it all out. Thanks for listening.