Hippy;
First of all, yes. You CAN call your doctor and tell EXACTLY what you've done.
What you have done is created a plan.
That's a dangerous step.
Please do call someone NOW.
You now have the means and a plan.
You are now in a medically DANGEROUS situation.
Please call someone NOW!
The next time, someone may not text you just in the nick of time!
The second thing to notice, AFTER you've made the call, is this.
You wanted to help someone.
That helping behavior made you feel better.
Hmmm.....
Ever think about that?
Getting outside of ourselves works!
You're in a very dangerous situation now, and need professional help.
Please contact your doctor and make a plan for your safty and long term plan to keep you feeling good about yourself.
Let us know how it's going...
Shalom!