Hi, Karim;
Yes, we love, and sometimes, we get hurt -- badly.
I'm sorry you got hurt. But, you won't die from a broken heart unless you do something rash. And that is truely a horse of a different color. That's when you need a reality check on your emotions. It has nothing to do with love, but, everything to do with control.
I do think some cognitive behavioral therapy could help you here. And I say this because I was that type of hopeless romantic when I was young too. Today, I still believe in love, but, it's a mutually respectful love I'm searching for. Perhaps you might ask your therapist about it?
Suicidal thoughts are serious. Please don't lie to your counselor and then come here to confess. We cannot get you the immediate help you clearly need!
Here is some emergency information if you need it right away:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-suicidal.html (If You Are Feeling Suicidal)
You don't say where you are, so, I can't get a local number for you. Please let us know.
I'm glad you spoke to the person. I hope it helped some. Dreamy or not.
But, please get some priorities in order.
1. Suicide is nothing to make light of.
2. Tell the counselor the truth.
3. Look for a mature love that's lasting.
Let us know how it's going.
Shalom!