[marware]

Hello,

It pains me to even type this message but I really need help. I have an addiction that I just can't kick. I had back surgery 2 1/2 years ago and was treating the pain with doctor prescribed Lortabs. I could get through a day with taking three 7.5's and like everyone else, actually liked the way it made me feel. I eventually needed surgery that helped a bit, but the pain is chronic and I am still receiving Lortab's. I want to emphasize, I am having pain, but I do not need the Lortab's but that doesn't stop me from getting them prescribed.

I am very fortunate, married, three children, great job, great pay so I have a lot to lose. I tried taking myself off the Lortab's last summer and failed. I went cold turkey and it was an awful experience. Very weak was my wost complaint. Needless to say I found my way back on the Lortabs, and started searching forum like this for help. This is where I read about Suboxone. I searched my local area and due to my somewhat public image, I opted to go see a doctor 50 miles away from my home. Really not that big of a deal, as I often travel through this city ona regular basis.

I had my initial visit with the doctor and told him my history, current meds and he agreed to let me give suboxone a try. When I went to see the doctor (which was spring of 2007) I was taking 4 7.5 lortabs a day. I went off the Lortabs for two days to start going into withdrawls per physician direction and showed up at 8:00 am early in the morning.

I was in the office all day, actually did not leave until 5:00 pm that evening. I remember the nurse taking my vitals giving me some pills and putting them under my tongue. Other then the taste, I did not think it was all that bad. Then, every hour on the hour they nurse would enter and give me more pills to put under my tongue. After the 2nd dose I stated get pretty tired and slept most of the time between doses. The next thing I know it is 5:00 pm, my pupils are pin point and I am sick to my stomach. I really think I recieved too high of an initial dose.

After leaving the facility I still had to drive 50 miles to get home, I know beyond ignorant. I made it home and was still sick until the next morning. I really don't think this was the withdrawl, I really believe I was just given too much Suboxone.

I know some may say the 4 7.5mg's a day is not all that much, but it is still difficult to stop consuming. I am really wanting to see a different physician and see if a lower starting dose would be better. Does anyone have any suggestions.

I also want to add, after the suboxone treatment I went three days before I gave in. It really wasn't addiction, but I slipped another disc in my back, which required a second surgery. The second surgery helped tremendously and I am pain free. I have no reason to be on Lortabs other then the addiction. I want to stop not only for me, but for my children. I am still a great father, but I am not the best father on these pills. I want to stop, and I am really interested in trying the suboxone again. I personally believe my initial poor experience with Suboxone was due receiving too much Suboxone.

I was taking three pills, under the tongue, from 10:00 am until 5:00 pm.


Any help would be greatly appreciated.