Tammie,
Have courage, my friend!
I know this feeling of loneliness you talked about and remembered how it was with me when I was married. But you seem to have things going for you and at least last night seemed fine. I have a hunch you´re only going through a crisis... and as we say in France, crisis are good, because they always bring something new and unexpected. It´s a challenge.
I hope things work out for you. Support your husband but don´t forget about yourself. You´re such a special person and you deserve the best.
Gosh, I´m tired. I went to a wonderful Tango party and had chili con carne, but I danced too much and felt weak again. So I went home earlier than I expected and am curling up on my couch. It´s really tough to have so much work - a book and a festival to manage. I feel a bit sad, but that´s not bad. I know it will pass.
Be well and here is a big hug from me across the ocean. Love and light,