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Today I am so so blessed to be able to come here and share. My marriage is falling apart and I don't know what to do..I want him to understand me and believe in me, but he is burned out with his career and in poor health and just doesn't have it in him I guess. That and of course it's ALWAYS my fault. Without fail. I am so lonely sometimes I think I will break in two. This is not how I have always been. In my younger years I never let any get this close so I saved a lot of heartache. Our home purchase is going badly again...the heater isn't working in this house....I don't feel very strong today, and I woke up in tears. I know I will find a way to persevere I am just so scared and tired and lonely. He told me last night to seek life elsewhere if I don't like it. Ans that I should be helping him more with a career change..God knows how badly I want to do just that. I am trying to think of anything to make some money and ease his burdens..and would work at any type of job to help..this week the panic atttacks have been bad again and it is really hard to get a job and not be able to show up becausee of it...I understand some of where he is coming from, I truly do I just feel like I am being thrown away I guess and it hurts so bad...Thanks for listening my friends.(((((((((hugs)))))))