[Pony]

I have to tell ya that I am struggling very much right now. I have some really emotional things going on in my family currantly and some financial stresses that are just weighing my down.

If I haven't been real talkative lately it's because I just can't find the words and my mind is so bogged down. So my sharing has taken a back seat. I know it shouldn't, but it is really hard for me, like most I guess, to open up and say," hey I am not doing well".

I have an aunt that is terminally ill from liver disease and Hep C. She has dealt with this for many years but is now losing her battle. she has been in the last stages for months, but is really down to any time now. I have known about this for a while, but I guess you are never really prepared enough. There are some things that I really want to say to her but can't get there so to car problems. I am writing her a letter in hopes that somehow it will get to her in time.

The other thing is that my car is in need of major work...well, a water pump replacement....lol, but the mechn. in town want around two hundred fifty dollars to fix it...that's just labor. That will be all that I have for the month. Working for the district I only get paid once a month. So I am looking around some more for a mechn to do it for less. There is a chance that my daughter's friend will be albe to do it, so keep fingers crossed.

There's more going on too, but I have to head back to work and can't ramble on any further...lol

Just keep my in prayer friends, I just need to clear my head and think of what the plan is. I know it's out there, but I can't see it yet.