[butterflylover]

Originally Posted by meliejv

Thnk you butterfly lover and ccgirl. No I haven't been talking to a counselor. We have been in nashville only 4 months and i just now have a new patient appointment coming up with a Pschiatrist later in the month. I do want to find someone to work this out with. The thing is is I was getting over my agoriphobia befoe we moved here and as soon as we got here i regressed back. I think its very scary and overwhelming to me to be a new area. Not to mention I just don't get the freeway system out here so it makes me not wnat to drive anywhere for fear I'll get lost. Plus it is a total culture shock for me. In california there are certain social rules that everyone respects. People out there just give people space and i reaaly got used to social RULES. In nashville people are so in your face and nice and I thought I would love that part of nashville and yet it has left me feeling vulnerable. I feel like I'm going to get cornered or trapped in a conversation. Not that i don't like people, I just am more of an introvert and I like my space or my bubble actually. It's a tool I learned because I was so lousy at setting boundaries with people. In nashville nobody has a bubble so it seems so they think you don't have one either. I don't know if any of this makes sense to you but i am just having a hard time adjusting. I haven't check in for a few days because I have been having panic attacks and I have been feeling really depressed and I have no idea why but I just want to pull the covers over my head and cry. I haven't felt my depression for over a month and yet here it is to bite me in the ass again. Unlike some people I pull away when I am feeling bad. I see alot of people have bipolar disorder here at this forum, I have major depressive disorder. Is the difference with bipolar is that you have manic highs as well as manic lows. Is that true, correct me it I'm wrong. I hope I don't offend anyone by asking. Thank you for all of your support.

Mel

Welcome to the south! Where everyone's holds the door for you , waves and says hi to strangers in our 'twangy' accent, lol. It's funny, out west it's a "freeway" and here we call it the "interstate". I can only imagine how it feels making a big move AND dealing with depression. My dad's family is there and I've been twice and yes it very different. I hope everything starts falling into place for you.

If ya ever need to know something about Nashville, feel free to ask.