Hi CCgirl, i'm a rapid cycler, but I'm so use to it that i rarely notice the cycling...i just notice when i'm depressed.
Are bipolar I (struggle mostly with manias) or bipolar II (struggle mostly with depressions)? I've read that rapid cycling is most often associated with bipolar II.
What mood stabalizer are you currently on? would it be possible to raise the dosage ? Have you ever tried being on 2 different types of mood stabalizers at the same time?
Are you seeing a pdoc you are confident in? Have you thought of seeing a second one for a second opinion?
Theres a depression site kind of like SR that Liveweyered pointed me to that focuses only on mental illnesses and primarily those assciated with depression. So there is a specific forum devoted only to bipolar disorder.
I have found it a little more difficult to navigate, but it has TONS of info and the home page is
http://www.depressionforums.org
The bipolar area is
http://www.depressionforums.org/index.php?ind=bipolar
But the actual bipolar forum is at
http://www.depressionforums.org/foru...p?showforum=31
Also....have you tried doing the number counting/pictureing meditation when your brain is going non-stop and keeping you from being able to sleep? Or progressive muscle relaxation as guided by an audio tape or CD? Both work really great! With any kind of meditation you have to continually work toward training your brain to not "wander" off, but mostly just the first 10-20 times you try it. Then, once your brain is trained, it's has become conditioned to the excersizes as being relaxing and it becomes much easier.
And if you do the meditations by audio tapes or CDs (that can be found online, at bookstores and other places) then many will tell you throughout them to let go of your thoughts, relax and listen to what is being said and to concentrate on that.
Hugs,
Jenna