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I am comning down like a dead weight. I start off daYOK and now it is hell. Therapy was crap. I am having al the old anx stuff that I can't deal with. I am supposed to be going away with family tomorrow for long weekend and I am scared outof my skin. No usual people to talk to they are all fed up of me.
I want to my old disappearing malrlarky but I can't. I just cant handle normal life. it would be so much easier to dip out and not be responsible for others happiness but I know I can't. It is easy to see why people think the world would be better off without them. Nowhere to go when I feel like this. Samaritans good and kind but cant when family around.
I will shut up now. just wanted to vent somewhere. sorry it was here.
hippy
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