(((Don)))
I'm thinking that, when *I* have to keep watch for an answer, (and yes, that is often), it's an issue of trust. I, too, fear being ridiculed; rejected; humiliated and/or having things I've said in trust used against me later on. So, the answer to your question is, yes, there have been times I've shared and later wished I never had. Those people I've shared with, when I discover I regreted doing so, turned out to be untrustworthy -- and sadly, that *does* include counselors too! :>(
You're not crazy Don...
Not unless we all are!
You just have reason to fear. For that, I"m really really sorry.
When you Vietnam Vets came home, you were treated horribly. There is nothing we can do to change that now. I only hope that you can see many Americans have grown up as a *result* of the treatment you received. It's why people today can say, "Support the troops; Leave Iraq."
I am *NOT* trying to start a political debate here at all. What I"m refering to is the very real growth in American attitude from the Vietnam Era to today's times. Back then, you were personally held responsible for doing what you thought was right; what you thought was your patriotic duty; or even just because you refused to resist or dodge the draft. That is not happening today because, in a large part, Americans saw what happened to you and recognized our collective responsibility for your plight -- for the part we played in it.
Don, I know you; we've met each other and shared time with each other.
I could never hate you...
You did what you had to do. And I certainly don't have to tell you that, in your situation, you were able to do it in one measure cuz it was you or them! That's reality! Survival instinct is strong, Don. And you were in Hell.
And now you are no longer there.
I hope you can come to recognize that fact and relax enough to enjoy once more...
Love you, Don...
Shalom!