Beers and seroquel are a bad match.
It's no wonder you're crying your eyes out; they are both depressants.
And if you're not careful, you can kill yourself with them.
Please stop - now!
Call someone; get to a meeting if needed. Call a hotline or a friend. But, stop the totally self destructive behavior.
I know how hard it is to leave someone. I left my husband after 24 years. I *do* understand! You need support. Get a counselor. See friends on a regular basis. Do things for yourself. Learn something new. Go to your church, synogogue, or mosque. Make a life for yourself. That's what it comes down to in the end, anyway. You can be pro-active or you can delay, and end up doing it anyway - unless you kill yourself with the booze and the drugs, that is.
I needed to care for myself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Doing so set me on the road to good health. It's a blessing after what we do to ourselves.
I wish you all the best. Continue to let us know how you are. We care.
Shalom!