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Thank you all Terry, Juls, and Morning glory you said the exact same thing as my lisa my tharapist she has been a wonderfull addition to my recovery it has taken 9 months to get to a place where i could open up to talk about the issues. I have trouble conveying to others that i have any problems whatsoever.
I am the guy who looks perfect,dresses perfect never a hair out of place has spent tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars on self help programs,sales programs, seminars boot camps you name it. I have had my own companies and do still today.
nothing has ever filled the void or killed the demons for any length of time. You see the only thing that can do that is a total healing and that I know takes time my microwave mentality to heat and serve will not allow for this needed time without alot of effort.
I am working real hard and going to 2or3 meetings a day and these do help as I love to help others also.Now as lisa says take it easy here as I am also very codependent and my zealosness is not recipricated by others and that has and will again cause resentment and pain. thank you for leting me think out loud
big hugs............. Steve
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