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laurenlanai25 · 08-21-2007, 08:20 PM

hi!

I once thought drinking was not an option for me either, i had 3.5 years of continuous sobriety when i chose to drink again. Remember its cunning, baffliing, and powerful! i cant speak for anyone else who has relapsed but i can share my own experience. i did not come into aa to sober up until i felt better, i like many of us tried to take it one day at a time. then i really dont know what happend to this day! i guess thats the whole cunning, baffling, powerful part! i was attending meetings, voulenteering at the hospital once a week, working with newcomers, talking to my sponsor, and trying to incorporate the steps into my life.

I think i just got bored, the drama had pretty much left me, i think i became resentful at aa that my life was so routine. i mean i had this amazing job, wonderful friends, and a pretty amazing life, and i was pissed! it was BORING!!! and it was all AA's fault! let me tell you, i would take that life any day over the drama i so needed, which got!! i go to court friday, because of the second dui i got, my liscense is suspended so i cant drive, still on probation because of the first one i got 1yr and 1 month because of this last one!

so i guess i answered my question i why i went back out, but i just want to let you know that it was not my intention when i first got sober! going back out for a year and then having to come back to the rooms and once again admit COMPLETE DEFEAT!! it was hard, my pride kept me out of the rooms the entire year that i drank! its not easy, and it sucked that first meeting, i was so embarassed! i was afraid someone was going to say i told you so, but guess what? no one did.

i guess an answer that i have to your question "What kind of alcoholism or addiction do these folks have, anyway?"

THE TYPE OF ALCOHOLISM I HAVE IS THE SAME KIND YOU DO!!!

08-21-2007, 08:20 PM	#3 (permalink)
laurenlanai25 Member Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Here Posts: 124	hi! I once thought drinking was not an option for me either, i had 3.5 years of continuous sobriety when i chose to drink again. Remember its cunning, baffliing, and powerful! i cant speak for anyone else who has relapsed but i can share my own experience. i did not come into aa to sober up until i felt better, i like many of us tried to take it one day at a time. then i really dont know what happend to this day! i guess thats the whole cunning, baffling, powerful part! i was attending meetings, voulenteering at the hospital once a week, working with newcomers, talking to my sponsor, and trying to incorporate the steps into my life. I think i just got bored, the drama had pretty much left me, i think i became resentful at aa that my life was so routine. i mean i had this amazing job, wonderful friends, and a pretty amazing life, and i was pissed! it was BORING!!! and it was all AA's fault! let me tell you, i would take that life any day over the drama i so needed, which got!! i go to court friday, because of the second dui i got, my liscense is suspended so i cant drive, still on probation because of the first one i got 1yr and 1 month because of this last one! so i guess i answered my question i why i went back out, but i just want to let you know that it was not my intention when i first got sober! going back out for a year and then having to come back to the rooms and once again admit COMPLETE DEFEAT!! it was hard, my pride kept me out of the rooms the entire year that i drank! its not easy, and it sucked that first meeting, i was so embarassed! i was afraid someone was going to say i told you so, but guess what? no one did. i guess an answer that i have to your question "What kind of alcoholism or addiction do these folks have, anyway?" THE TYPE OF ALCOHOLISM I HAVE IS THE SAME KIND YOU DO!!!