[namommy]

Oh Boy.
I had another melt down this morning. I cried my eyes out, I hate my job, I hate my life, I hate my husband, I hate having migraines, I hate NA, I just hate everything.

I need to pray for forgiveness tonite because I'm not supposed to have the word hate in my vocabulary.

My job is totally stressing me out. They send me to 8 or 9 different places over the course of the week on public transportation in 98+ degree heat with 90+ % humidity and expect 100% out of me. They tell me that it's because I am the best tech they have, yet they treat me like crap.

I hate that I have to uproot my family and move to a smaller place and I am totally overwhelmed with trying to pack up this house.

I hate my husband because he's not been much help with this whole ordeal and as far as packing goes, forget it. It's just not getting done, and I'm busy working and running a recovery house. He should be doing most of the packing. He also needs to get a job.

My migraines have been off the hook the past few days thanks to my insurance company. When my doctor increased the dosage of my daily medication to prevent migraines, my insurance wouldn't approve it and we had to fight for it. I was without my meds for about 4 or 5 days, and the migraines went through the roof. I love insurance companies (NOT)

I hate the people in NA around here because they are not supportive of anything. I got 3 phone calls for my anniversary. My best friend, my old sponsor, and an active addict. My current sponsor didn't even call me. I called her Sat. crying my eyes out and left her a message and she still hasn't returned my call.

I found out that my husband and the girls at the house are planning a surprise party for my anniversary, but most people are telling my husband that they won't or can't be there. NICE!!

I cried my eyes out in the meeting this morning, and left without much comfort or support. I really DISLIKE this area.

Sorry for puking on the forum like this, but this is the only place I feel loved.

Laurie