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There's actaully a simple logic why i would give up my hard earn cash
or go to any length for my recovery. I think it through and through
After all, when i hit bottom , I did lose everything.
Mentally, physically and spiritaully bankrupt...and of course finacially.
if it wasn't for the rooms of NA or AA..bascailly i wound had been dead.
I was sleeping in my car, all doors closed.
So when i say " by the grace of God there go I"
Do i really mean it or is it something that I just blurr out.
Recovery had given me back so much more than I can ever imagine.
it gets even more simple when i take a long hard look at myself
and the things that i did. mmm..a lot more than $10,000 went up my nose.
i didn't bitch or complain about the money when i was using on drugs or alcohol,
and i drove all over the damn county looking for dope, night after night.
so why would i bitch and complain about money or service work now that I'm clean and sober. i have moments of fustrations becuase i'm human, but deep inside
of me there is Truth.
it's not about the money. No amount of money can bring me peace nor keep
me clean and sober.
Some how I just have to trust in that process. There is a reason why I'm still
alive, after all i did tried to committe suicide already too.
if it's not grace, then i don't know what is..becuase i had my plans.
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