Before I get to my main point (which will be very brief), let me just 'stir the pot' so to speak......... lol
Unlike many here (since this is the Substance Abuse forum, and not the Alcoholism forum), I do see a difference/distinction between alcohol (and being sober) and all other drugs (and being clean).....
Technically AA is specifically about alcohol, and abstinence from it, thus the name Alcoholics Anonymous (sober).....NA is about all drugs, and abstinence from them--all of them (it IS in NA where one gets the phrase 'a drug is a drug is a drug....
..........so for me, and from AA's point of view (AA, not individuals in AA), a person can be 'sober' but not 'clean' ...... but a person cannot be 'clean' if not 'sober.' The way I see it...all alcoholics are addicts (whether they like it or not...lol...alcohol IS a drug), but not all addicts are alcoholics (but to be clean they must abstain even from alcohol).
Now that the pot is nicely stirred, let me get to the one thing that you said, to which I might have an answer, or at least a suggestion...
You said: "I'm just coming off another Vicadin binge and am puzzled, as prior to getting the meds, I contacted my sponsor, hit a meeting and prayed my ass off not to go and get a script. But I gave into the cravings and went all last week doctor shopping befor coming to my senses on Thursday (August 19). I'm very scared that this will continue. I feel like I"m doing everything possible to avoid this and yet it keeps happening."
Welllllllll.........how bout goin back to that first step; after all thaat's the only step that even mentions alcohol.....or drugs (and the only step that must be done 100%).....the rest of the steps are just a 'design for living.' .... Work on that first step as it relates to vicodin and you.....
........and there is one thing you didn't do.....uh huh, yeh, um hum..... lol....you didn't NOT pick up.....oh yeh, simple, I know (being sarcastic here), but after admitting powerless over the addiction, and accepting this, we still need to NOT pick up......no matter what else we do, or what other steps we do.....they're all worthless if we don't do this..... IMHO, of course.....
Hope this helps out a bit.............simple, but not necesarily.....
NoelleR
DOS/Clean Date: 6/23/86
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